My alarm went off at 5:00 this morning. After tossing and turning most of the night, waking up almost every hour, and still being on the recovery from major stress and anxiety I thought to myself, "What is going to be better for me today?"
Yes, I love going to my classes and getting in a good sweat session. It is so invigorating to the body and to the mind.
But this morning? What did my body really need?
I said a quick prayer and pondered on it for what felt like a minute. When I turned over and looked at my clock it said "5:24." I thought that that was a pretty clear answer since my class starts at 5:30. So I cleared my mind of regret and worry and rolled back over to sleep.
And it was okay.
Sometimes we need to be at peace with accepting what our bodies can and cannot give. This is something that I particularly struggle with. Of course I need to exercise to keep myself healthy. But today? Healthy today needs to focus more on the emotional and the spiritual than the physical.
And it is okay.
On Wednesday my house was SCREAMING for my attention. After being sick there are piles of laundry, dishes, and general disorderliness everywhere. My homework was SCREAMING for my attention. Deadlines and assignments and things that needed sorting out. So what did I do?
I gathered up my babies, popped popcorn, climbed into bed and we snuggled and watched Toy Story 2.
Did the dishes get done? No. Did I get back on top of all of my homework? No.
And it was okay.
My daughter had a Valentine's party at her preschool yesterday. She went with Lifesaver rings that had little stickers on them with her name. Everything came in one box and took about 10 minutes to put together. She came home with lavish valentines, decked out with cute sayings, bags, and the every essence of perfection.
But you know what? That was okay too.
My girl [A] was perfectly content and excited about taking her little treats to her friends. Bells and whistles didn't change that for her.
Sometimes we just need to step back and assess our lives. What is truly important? What is truly worth fretting and worrying over? And what is it okay to just accept?
I doubt anyone is as bad at this as me. But for this week I am trying really hard to give myself a good hard look in the mirror with all of my flaws and everything I just didn't have the time and energy to get to and simply say...
It is okay.
QUESTION FOR MY READERS: Have you taken the time to evaluate how much you can do lately? Are you at peace with saying "no" sometimes? Leave me a comment below!